Thinking again...

I looked at TV today. There was this commercial where blueberries were blended and it turned red. That made me think that what if cold(yin) and hot(yang) energies have different form. Yin as a free and relaxed, yang as a strict and powerful. Then i was thinking how the particles would be, but i remembered that it's spiritual and it non-material. Stupid. :/

I had a strange dream today, that i still can't remember fully. There was this hospital... well, can't really call it a hospital... kinda like asylum-hospital-hotel. Me and some other people from psychokinesis forum were under "special" treatment. Also, the radio broadcasted over and over everything about us. There was this person asking questions and us answering 1 by 1. But the thing was we weren't there. We were in our rooms. 1 room fitted approx. 2 people. At a point i said:"Hey! I'm on radio! *laughs at it*". :D

I also found out that when dream stops, and when i concentrate on it and go back dreaming, i can continue the dream, but not for long. :/

PK has been kinda weak. I've been trying to set stuff on fire. I put a paper on fire and then blow out the fire. The paper will still be partially burning so i try to boost the burning and try to set it on fire again. No success so far tho.

Healing has gone actually pretty well. I can feel other peoples energy channels and painful spots.

A few weeks... no... a month... no idea, but i went to make an aura picture. My solar plexus chakra was other color. I wonder why. Also there was this camera and the one making it said to smile. First 3 seconds i was serious as hell and then imagined myself smiling and then i started to laugh. I couldn't stop laughing lol. I have no idea what happened xD.

Nothing else much has happened, just some strange dreams etc.

I'm kinda furious. PK doesn't work but i constantly keep electronics, just like 2 days before my monitor started changing brightness. That was a serious wtf moment for me. My geisting source seems to be frustration, anger, and sadness. Aka negative energy.

Still in search for missing part of PK.

Lately i have wanted to get hit by lightning. It can't kill me, i don't know why. I just know that it can't.

"The universe is full of answers. You just have to find them."  said by my mom, in a dream. A lucid dream. Before that i said:"Hold on, if we are dreaming, we should remember it." But i still haven't asked.

It's funny that every time i listen to some good songs, it creates geisting events.

Amnesia custom stories don't scare me anymore for some reason.

For some reason i think i'm not human. I'm something different. I see myself usually as demon. A good one. I want death for some people, but usually i intend to help people.Tho sense something very dark within me.