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Thursday, November 27, 2014

Unbecoming

Something worth noting.

Yesterday, I went to sleep at 16:00... I was pretty tired. Slept, saw some dreams - all normal. Woke up at 23:00 where i felt the urge to check my mail, to see if I had got a reply from a certain person. No reply. Little time passes by wondering random stuff. Back to sleep it was.

I remember it taking place at home. Not sure what was the scenario, but it was fairly casual. Something caused a wave in my consciousness, which triggered an OBE. I was still somewhat scared what will happen next, but the state broke and I returned to dream. Curious as I was, I re-attempted. Success, yet nothing happened. A lot of noise, of to which quickly adapted. The state broke again. This time, with cofidense, I jumped back into it. Like previous, it also broke. I tried again and again and again, and at one point, I couldn't tell the difference between if I were in that state or not. If it was reality or not. Out of curiousity, I attempt to erase my consciousness fully. "I do not exist, and I, am merged with everything". As i go for it, it goes so far so quickly, I nearly feel loss of my consciousness. The thought scared me, and I quickly escaped that state.
I woke up due to it. So many things going through my mind, that i'm unable to go back into this strange 'OBE' state.

At the morning, I felt much more aware, as i would usually. The times i jumped back into this state was around 15 (without strangely breaking the dream cycle).