So now i have more time, i will make a more proper one on stuff i've done.
First off, i went to see a mom's friend, who is an energy worker as well. She has her own perspective on stuff, but she knows what she's doing. Nothing new so far really. Just a few thing.
Secondly, i have been training OBE's and i have got further. To the ... vibration stage, i believe that's what they call it. It's as fading away to yourself, or starting to rise. Kinda strange to explain really.
3-rd, My PK abilities have dropped very low, yet my awareness is incredibly high. Even my sight has improved like 100x times. I looked out of the window and as far as i could see, no problem at all. Crystal clear.
4-th, i've programmed myself to pulse out energy and affect anything in the area. That is only when i listen to very good music. Something that gives me goose pumps, and chills through my spine. :P
5-th, I started to train on straw on a pin. I actually had a good success until i created a construct. But i managed to break it, few minutes later, another construct lol.
6-th, I took some sleep pills, but that partially induced hyperactivity mentally. Put me into some kind of strange state, where energy moves more freely.
7-th, As everyone is progressing, i'm stuck here, furious. I'm missing something, doing something wrong even tho i do everything EXACTLY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!!!!!! >.<
8-th, I don't quite understand bio-field. Is it the thing surrounding you? Or is it inside like energy?
9-th Even when i use energy, it is out, i can use it but it does not have any effect FFS!!! >.<
It's really making me furious. I feel the damn cold breeze around me, i can feel energy within, i can project it, and no fu**ing result!
10-th, Sun pulsing, making sun radiate solar flares. Cancelled. Too dangerous. Switched for Solar shielding.
Nice timing, 11:11 PM.
ReplyDeleteFor most of the time, it's the same for me too .. project a dense field of psi around the target, space-time around the object starts to wobble, sparks appear, I lose awareness of my body but still nothing happens. No interaction.
I think it's more a matter of attitude towards the object that's important. Flowing gently, smoothly and playfully (without being serious about it) or something.
It's interesting how almost always something happens when I get those chills at a concert. Either the amplifier starts generating, resulting in a loud squeak or the artists mess up. These events bring me down to earth again, keeping the moments of resonance short.