I have made certain ... "changes", in my life. Can't really call it progress. Sure, i'm starting to get hang on visualizing, yet it 'looks' dark to me. It's not vivid. Though control is perfect.
Deja'vus are still coming like crazy. Every major event causes some sort of sudden burst of "hey, why do I already know this?". There have been differences. For example, watching anime, i realize and then, the outcome is totally different, of what i remember. Even after the exam, I remember standing in kitchen at evening, talking to parents, but it never happened. So... *shrugs*.
Dreams mean something different now. They are about 'unlocking' physical restraints, while in reality, we put them to the test. Also, it seems that it's not the physical body that gets tired, but rather mentality. Then again, the whole concept of 'tiredness' could (and most likely is) just be an illusion. Though, at most times, I can't be even bothered to control dreams. I like what it throws at me.
I still cannot get around with people. Even in dreams, I befriend 'demons' (in wide range of entities), simply because they are more amusing.
Though, a while ago, something interesting did happen. My mom experienced an OBE. She was sick and was sleeping on the couch. At one point, she felt someone standing next to her. Described to be alike to me, but taller. He was saying something, which she could not understand. She went into a panic and tried to open her eyes with all her strength, and then 'suddenly', was capable and no one was there. She also described the "heavy" feeling on her chest gone. I asked how afraid she was on scale of 10 (uncontrollable panic) she said 8.
I sarcastically said "fun, isn't it?", since she is afraid of such things.
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