Update of 9.06.2014

Estonian exam was easier than i thought (even though i still do not know my grade). I picked as topic "Internet and it's dangers". It was fairly easy to keep going. I hope i at least get a '3'.

Last evening, i had a memory black out. I was listening to OBE binaural beats, the next thing i know is "when did i take my headphones off? I never did that...". They weren't randomly thrown or fallen off. They were specifically set aside. The binaural beats itself were still playing. How strange.

I brought chopsticks today. I've never used them before, but they were suprisingly easy to use. Ate a cup of mashed potatoes (ones, you just add water and it's ready). I like chopsticks already. They are different -- a good different.

Had some strange dream, cannot remember, yet it wants to recall itself. Do not have enough links to recall it.

Started growing a salt crystal. When i tried to use a normal crystal, it simply won't start growing. It's like it wants the one that has been hand-grown. Hmm...

Update of 7.06.2014

Went over all of CSS and HTML since some things kept screwing up (childs, classes, id's etc). Now, started learning jQuery which is still a bit of a mindfuck to me. I understand the main part, but i still manage to screw up the action part, for example:

//If document == ready do following:
$(document).ready(function() {
// Variables
   $button = $('#btn');
   $element = $('#element');
//if button pressed make...
      $button.click(function() {
element fadeout slowly.
         $element.fadeOut('slow')
});
});

I have no clue if this even works. What i'm trying to tell, is that double (or more) functions f' up my logic.

All the physical stuff has gone down for now. Phew -- finally, a calm moment.

Have had A LOT of dreams. Today was a bit different since i had a lucid one. A book somewhat "woke" me up. As ironic as it sounded, the book was called "Ancient ways of Lucid dreaming". It was fairly new. Browsed through it quickly... lost interest fairly fast. Put it back in the secret chest i found from. While attempting to read, i tried to mediate my consciousness so i wouldn't wake up nor lose it at all.
The rest of the dream, i managed to retain portion of my awareness. There was some sort of uprising. Fairly high altitude place. Sun shining. People were carrying guns.
One person was swapping guns for other stuff (since there was no money in use due to the uprise). The place felt completely different. It felt kinda "heaven-ly" like.

When i saw a man nick a gun from the market guy (without him seeing), i decided that i should too. I got caught and rockets started flying from all over the place. Nearly escaped alive.

Due to lucidity, i remember the environment fairly precicely (i don't like using lucidity -- It's much more fun to just be and see where it takes you). Though, i did learn a new thing thanks to it. In the dream, i concentrated on the energy emitted from a body. It blocked out most of my normal vision, but made energy completely visible. I was emitting a stream of yellow-ish white energy from my fingertips. It was pretty cool.
Though, trying it out in reality didn't work out that well, but there certainly was different "waves" that i haven't noticed as vividly as before.

What i did in the dream was: concentrate on the "disruptions" in air (think like heat waves), then kept focusing on seeing them more until it took on form and color.

As for other dreams... they are fairly ... weird. Abstract. That's the best answer i can come up with.

Death dream becoming true?

Lately, my body has decided to find ways to simply go "kaputt". Now my digestive system is so fucked. Started last night, wanted to vomit. Felt like stomach acids were ridiculous high. Drank half glass of milk. Seemed to sooth it down. It's night again, and it feels like it's trying to repeat itself. There's this unsetling feeling. Kinda sightly pains.

That reminded me of a dream that i had long ago. It was somewhere green, vines were hanging. I'm looking at a grave. Without a body, i cry. I'm unsure over whom i cried of. But when i told that to my mom (years ago), i said that it was myself. That i had died.

I don't really have anything against death, but it's sad to see other people sad, so i want nobody to remember me. This world has more than enough grief and sorrow as it already is.

Update: Physics exam -- passed succesfully!

To tell the truth, this was actually the biggest concern to me. It was a lot easier than i expected. Got a 5 (not sure, but i think he said 45 points out of 47. Didn't hear well). Well, that's that. Now the next one will be Estonian and Biology.

Let the new ORMUS tests commence!

First results! My theory (shaleoil -> ORMUS) seems to have produced ORMUS-like ... *stuff*. I'm still waiting for it to settle down for 2-nd wash.
I have a question, though. This will be directed at Sussch, of course. :D

1. If you made ORMUS, did your's look kinda cloudy as well? I got the same result this and last year:

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The bottom layer seems to be much whiter than the layer above it. Probably impurities.