Thinking again...

I looked at TV today. There was this commercial where blueberries were blended and it turned red. That made me think that what if cold(yin) and hot(yang) energies have different form. Yin as a free and relaxed, yang as a strict and powerful. Then i was thinking how the particles would be, but i remembered that it's spiritual and it non-material. Stupid. :/

I had a strange dream today, that i still can't remember fully. There was this hospital... well, can't really call it a hospital... kinda like asylum-hospital-hotel. Me and some other people from psychokinesis forum were under "special" treatment. Also, the radio broadcasted over and over everything about us. There was this person asking questions and us answering 1 by 1. But the thing was we weren't there. We were in our rooms. 1 room fitted approx. 2 people. At a point i said:"Hey! I'm on radio! *laughs at it*". :D

I also found out that when dream stops, and when i concentrate on it and go back dreaming, i can continue the dream, but not for long. :/

PK has been kinda weak. I've been trying to set stuff on fire. I put a paper on fire and then blow out the fire. The paper will still be partially burning so i try to boost the burning and try to set it on fire again. No success so far tho.

Healing has gone actually pretty well. I can feel other peoples energy channels and painful spots.

A few weeks... no... a month... no idea, but i went to make an aura picture. My solar plexus chakra was other color. I wonder why. Also there was this camera and the one making it said to smile. First 3 seconds i was serious as hell and then imagined myself smiling and then i started to laugh. I couldn't stop laughing lol. I have no idea what happened xD.

Nothing else much has happened, just some strange dreams etc.

I'm kinda furious. PK doesn't work but i constantly keep electronics, just like 2 days before my monitor started changing brightness. That was a serious wtf moment for me. My geisting source seems to be frustration, anger, and sadness. Aka negative energy.

Still in search for missing part of PK.

Lately i have wanted to get hit by lightning. It can't kill me, i don't know why. I just know that it can't.

"The universe is full of answers. You just have to find them."  said by my mom, in a dream. A lucid dream. Before that i said:"Hold on, if we are dreaming, we should remember it." But i still haven't asked.

It's funny that every time i listen to some good songs, it creates geisting events.

Amnesia custom stories don't scare me anymore for some reason.

For some reason i think i'm not human. I'm something different. I see myself usually as demon. A good one. I want death for some people, but usually i intend to help people.Tho sense something very dark within me.

More proper post

So now i have more time, i will make a more proper one on stuff i've done.

First off, i went to see a mom's friend, who is an energy worker as well. She has her own perspective on stuff, but she knows what she's doing. Nothing new so far really. Just a few thing.

Secondly, i have been training OBE's and i have got further. To the ... vibration stage, i believe that's what they call it. It's as fading away to yourself, or starting to rise. Kinda strange to explain really.

3-rd, My PK abilities have dropped very low, yet my awareness is incredibly high. Even my sight has improved like 100x times. I looked out of the window and as far as i could see, no problem at all. Crystal clear.

4-th, i've programmed myself to pulse out energy and  affect anything in the area. That is only when i listen to very good music. Something that gives me goose pumps, and chills through my spine. :P

5-th, I started to train on straw on a pin. I actually had a good success until i created a construct. But i managed to break it, few minutes later, another construct lol.

6-th, I took some sleep pills, but that partially induced hyperactivity mentally. Put me into some kind of strange state, where energy moves more freely.

7-th, As everyone is progressing, i'm stuck here, furious. I'm missing something, doing something wrong even tho i do everything EXACTLY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!!!!!! >.<

8-th, I don't quite understand bio-field. Is it the thing surrounding you? Or is it inside like energy?

9-th Even when i use energy, it is out, i can use it but it does not have any effect FFS!!! >.<
It's really making me furious. I feel the damn cold breeze around me, i can feel energy within, i can project it, and no fu**ing result!

10-th, Sun pulsing, making sun radiate solar flares. Cancelled. Too dangerous. Switched for Solar shielding.

Long time since of last post

So i thought i will make a quick post here what i have achieved so far:

•  5-th aura layer seeing
• Stronger energy field and control
• More knowledge!
• People who can teach and guide me.
• More experience on getting OBE's. (Tho no success yet.)

And much more. I have no time to write this. Must go. I'll write when i have time ;)

Time to make a short log

Just came to tell that i'm still alive.

Quite the much has happened lately. So here's what has happened:

1. Hearing scratches and footsteps, ignorance only makes them grow stronger and cause stronger events. This mostly happens while meditating. shy told it's my energies growing stronger. I'll try to control it again today.

2.It's freezing everywhere! I don't only mean outside, but inside too even if there's 25C or more. I think my yin energies are going under rampage.

3. Seeing symbols as usual.

4. Dreams of aliens and other. Nothing serious.

Nothing much else.