"Oh great.... it's morning already."

Last night i was watching SquareEater for a while. Also, stared at colored screens.
Spent the whole night thinking in half-sleep... can't remember what i thought about... -_-

The next thing i remember is saying:"(Disappointed) Oh great.... it's morning already.". It was somewhat amusing too. Majority of me was all like:"Goddamnit..." and the minority:"That was cool. Now if i could only stay conscious with time flying by."

I'm going to try train auric vision and watch SquareEater again today.

Old dreams and symbols

I've never understood these dreams. They are scary as hell, but serve some sort of meaning.

The dream takes off at night, in my room. I'm hiding under a blanket, sealing every possible opening. Soon i start to hear voices and start to feel multiple pulls (as in people trying to remove the blanket at take me away. I ain't even gonna start referring to other similar posts about getting dragged somewhere (while pretending to be asleep) or falling inside a pitch black dimensions where i hear a deep voiced chants. These dreams have always been somehow connected.
My theory on them is that i'm unable to turn off OBE's (like i am with auric sight) and entities are capable of physically harming me. Then again, they might try to "awake" me (as in spiritually).

Either way, the dream went on. These masses of voices, pulls & pushes faded away. I went to the living room (living room is right next to my bed room) where i find mom sitting on couch. She seemed confused and scared. When i took a closer look, she had symbols written all over her. For some reason, i knew what they meant. What it meant, was "Death". I still remember shivers running through my spine when i realized it. And then we just sat there, in fear and confusion.

This all happened after 1-2 in the morning (since i sorta fell asleep at 6 in the evening, i took it as an OBE attempt). The funny thing is, my mom told me that i had a conversation with her in an angry manner, yet i have no memory of it happening. She said it was around 9 at evening. Hahaha, i wonder whom she spoke to.
(She said that i had said this: *Mom walks in to my room* Me:"What do you want? *Meanwhile eyes were closed* Mom:"Did you set the alarm for tomorrow?" Me:"Yeah, yeah (actually, i did not. I did it after 1 AM).
She asked more questions but the answer was similar. It was nearly as she was talking to my subconscious or something. A program to give answers what i want without waking me. How convenient! Next go to school too. I'll wake up later. xD )
Also, right before OBE attempt, i saw some minor flashes again.

General: :/

I'm actually a bit annoyed by going over to the other forum. On android tablet, it looks rather confusing and lags. I would prefer the old one over the new. That is my opinion right now. Well see how future plays itself out.

I set up tasker (android app) to force me do a reality check every 30 min since i keep forgetting. It's just in a form of sending a mail. What time, how i feel, what i see etc.
I will as well print a schedule for PK, reality checks, mind-set trainings and much more (3-rd day i've forgotten to do it... darn).
I don't feel the need to meditate. Staring into the dark, breathing cold air is good enough to make me forget everything.

Had some dreams. Today had one that i have seen before. Acted differently, even tho the outcome last time was good as well. Can't say it was a good outcome this time. I somewhat threatened a woman's husband with a sword... eh.... why is it that people in dreams are different? Their personalities are totally different.


People's thinkings are like windows on a house. Once they change them, they do not consider the possibility of previous thoughts.
Some never decide to wash their windows, never knowing what may be outside. The best windows what you possible can have... are none.

Messing with people's thoughts using sound

I find it amusing how easy it is to break one's concentration.

I've been experimenting by imbuing a thought and a pattern into sound, when the sound is created, the pattern similar to one's thinking is broken and original thought overwritten with external thought.

I've been messing with mom lately. She's playing games i snip my fingers slowly and increase the speed (causing more careless thinking, concentration on sound instead of game) then when i think it's good enough, i create a louder one followed by silence (Thought:"What now? What am/was i doing?"). The moment she realized that she had been concentrating on sound, she already failed at the game.

Much easier is just saying:"You will fail." causing person to imagine failure and to subconsciously materialize it.
I've said "you will succeed" and that worked, but lot less. Probably i've programmed her to think of failure. Hmmh...

I was also messing with her when she was talking with her sister (originally, i wanted to try breaking thought pattern of her sister instead). I used quiet, high-pitched whistle, concentrating on imbuing the thought of nothingness. It was more effective than i thought. She started lagging, as if parts of thoughts were cut off.

It's fun to mess with people. But i will restrain myself from doing so. Either way, what right do i have to do so?