Blenderin n' stuff (12.02.2014)

Been studying Blender for quite the while now. Following BlenderGuru's and BlenderCookie's tutorials, learning new stuff. I should learn more about rigging. Not much new stuff pops up anymore.
The latest i've made are these.

(Had to covert into jpeg... google apparently doesn't like png's for some reason.)

I'm just gonna leave the links here if anyone ever wants to download. I really don't care. I just do it for knowledge, and hope to get better.

Desert-sky-night

Sakura-starry-night

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There have been some minor geisting going on. The one that surprised me the most was when i woke up (around 8 at evening), sat in computer chair and watched 'Reporter' for a while. When the voting part came in, left side of the tv glitched out for a moment. It was quite interesting.

PK is rather stable. I constantly have the feeling that if i need to use it, i can.. well... i somewhat do. When trucks drive past through a puddle of water, i would attempt to create a wall. Or i would purposely step forcefully into a puddle (which sets the water and half-mold snow flying around me), i would try suspending them in air.

Not much really is going on right now. I'm tired, that's the main thing (even though we only had 2 lessons today... teacher was "sick"). Well, either way, the current life is rather boring. Constrained.
No OBE's, some odd dreams (which i can't remember except the fact something bad happened), some stuff pulled my mood pretty down, felt disgusted and guilty. Yeah... that's pretty much all.

PK block + OBE update + Dreams

From one side comes good, from other.. bad. In PK, i'm failing absolutely. If i'd go to PK school, i'd drop out. I get connection and everything, but PK doesn't take effect. Probably because i don't train much.

On the other side, i'm making progress with OBE again. It has kinda become a habit to try OBE every night. I'm facing another problem. When i enter a reality, i either get kicked out or lose consciousness. Now i have to find a way to stay awake when entering into these worlds.

(It's kinda like when you try to see in the dark. One moment you can see clearly, the other, all goes black. The images are too unstable. Concentration problem, perhaps?)


Aside from all the previous, i'm starting to remember dreams again.

(*Deleted major part of the dreams.*)

In the dream, i'm in a more futuristic environment. Spaceship-ish. Lights on the walls, most stuff made of metal. There were no windows. Just when i'm about to take a step, i see a commercial with sex. I mean like all private parts were allowed, with "action" (if you understand what i mean). A bit disgusted after seeing it, i get a letter (in a paper form). I look at it confused. It was rather large. I couldn't make out what was written on it. I open it and the first thing i see, is about the conspiracy about that weird commercial that i saw. I read:"

(Something like this, i cannot remember the exact text.)

*** are actually fine with such ad's?! 

Many have seen, and perhaps already have joined the resistance, against that ad. Just a short while after publishing, there was a big outrage. People are still protesting, yet nothing is done about it. 

Quoting ***:" (Woman voice speaks) I see nothing wrong with it and i believe it's a great example for children. After all, we all have similar bodies, what's there to hide?". 

But that's not all. According to the head of *** (the one who allows publishing such stuff), he thinks likewise. 

// This was only part of the top of the page. I couldn't even take a look at the other pages! Damn! //

(Dream ends.)

The next dream is pointless to tell (probably...).

Also, i for some reason seem to believe that i will live for 2400 years. It feels right. That would be troublesome though (everyone seems to say 100 years is long time, but it seems rather short to me. Maybe i'm just trying to play god, who knows.)

PsiPog's creator wrote a book?

I had a ton of Ebooks on my flashdrive (over 200 for sure, mainly occult science etc.) and stumbled upon an ebook called "Sean Connelly - The Psion Handbook".

Here's a redirect to it.

  

Also, i've been reading an ebook about etheric vision. Don't know who wrote it but... yeah. I have not read a lot, but it has it's interesting points.

Also, i got double spooked by the same entity last night... not amused... not amused at all.

Update of 13 Nov

Well, i've failed every single OBE now. Seems sleeping a few hours before going to sleep again works.

Been training PK a little, mainly concentration. Staring at candle flame and forgetting all thoughts, burning away all impurities and blockades.

"It doesn't matter what happens outside; What does matter, is what goes on in your mind... the inner-world. The outer world can be changed, once one's inner world is in balance". I've been thinking this sentence for a while now. Seems to make sense.

Last night, i was trying to see in pretty much pitch dark, trying to amplify all light sources. Later got some pretty strong constant tunnel effect. It felt as i was wearing some kind of night vision goggles.

At shop today, i was thinking of attempting to somehow influence the lottery chance. It was only a brief thought, tried and then came my turn to pay. "One Euro Jackpot, please", i said. The machine malfunctioned, saying there is no paper left. I didn't move since they called someone to fix it. It was my mom's friend, whom they called. She opened it and there still was paper in it. Closed it, worked again.

There's something i never quite understood. Everyone speaks of this "unconditional love", nearly as if it were a new religion. Truth be told, i find it stupid. Here's my understanding of it: You love everyone. I think the "love" part is wrong. I do not love a random person. Sure, i do kind deeds to them, but it's just.... no. Love in my dictionary is something different. It's something only for VERY close people. I mean  for lover, mainly.
I simply cannot go with this new generation hippy crap. Just because there's light in the dark, doesn't mean that's your only opinion, right? It's just like moth is attracted to the fire in the dark. Why not BE the balance of both of them?
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Dream log: Using PK with touch screen

This is was just a scene from my dream. We were somewhere in a forest, standing near a picnic table. It was night time, yet the area was rather well lit. Soon one of my mom's friends starts talking. "You know, the Windows ** you installed is so slow and it keeps crashing, not to even talk of the bugs", he boasts "It's a complete piece of junk! Where did you even get it?". I immidiately raise my middle finger and say "Just go and fuck yourself, K?" I walk away frustrated. (I hate egoisting people. They act if they know everything, but can't do anything)
Sitting on the grass, thinking to myself:"...It was still in beta, anyways.". Then i look at a huge screen, raise my hand and start browsing it as if i were touching a touch screen. Someone interrupted me, i forgot how i did it. I touched the screen as i normally did, then tried to use PK. I couldn't get any feedback, but i tried to imitate it. It worked (even tho there was quite the while since i got it to work).

Weird dreams, once again.

Today's dreams i had were completely negative. They were somewhat answers to my problems. I cannot quite remember them. It needs some sort of trigger. Either way, what seems weird to me now, is why i didn't quit them. I just went through with them like nothing.

Other than that, there have been some weird phenomena going on, that i wanted to write about.

On thursday, 5-th lessons end (business processes), we were supposed to write our opinions on LEAN and Six sigma. I was already finished with it. I noticed how the sun light vibrated (literally). It went lighter and darker rapidly like one of those old CRT TV's. The other's didn't seem to notice even when they looked at it directly. No idea why.

Further into the lesson, i was training auric sight, PK and telepathy. Noticed an entity go to a back room, door slightly moved.

Went to Rakvere yesterday. Some people were hungry so we decided to get something to eat and drink. I decided to take a coffee with a lot of sugar and milk. The coffee was terrible. It was only a small cup but i couldn't drink more than half of it... and even that by forcing myself. Later that backfired. My system was thrown upside down. Heart rate went down to 70 (Instead of rising, mine goes down), hands started freezing (they are ALWAYS cold, but never sense any negative sensation) and got chills all over my body. Also remember feeling really dizzy and nearly fell over in a hallway. Note to self: Never ever drink coffee from a shop again.

Mom went to a doctor, had tons of time.I was outside, practicing different kinds of sight abilities. Auric sight the most. The other's were: space & time distortions, radiation and sound. Oh, and telepathy again. There was a pigeon observing from a rooftop, i attempted to call it down. It flew away instead...

PK: Daydreaming

You actually don't need to train at all. Daydreaming is enough. Dreaming is enough. My abilities improve without actually training.

I keep noticing that i am daydreaming. Rather frequently now. Each idea, memory or fantasy ends up in rather detailed environment. And then you go "Oh, that's right... i'm daydreaming".

I'm pretty much broke at the moment so i can't even afford a ping-pong ball (not to mention i have tons of recyclable bottles at basement), but when i do, i'll buy some. I got a good feeling that my TK is capable of influencing it easily. I'm gonna have to print a schedule. I've got too lazy and major geisting has died out (not to mention this morning. I sorta "temporarily" broke the hair drier. Came from toilet, tried switching on, nothing. Went to other outlet, nothing. After 40 min, worked again.).

It's sorta a bad thing that i can't set up a proper PK lab, since i do some other experiments as well. Plus, my mom thinks of PK equipment as trash... so yeah.

Melting metal

I was melting aluminium outside today. I wanted to use alcohol and one of those old torches what runs on gasoline. ... It got my adrenaline running quite the bit. When i lit it, the pressure and flame only got worse by the second. It was nearly as my fear was amplifying it. At one point, the flame was coming out with such pressure, that the flame extinguished. I was relieved that it was over. Clearly it was a bad idea to use alcohol instead of gasoline. Maybe i put too much pressure into it too.... eheheh... whoops!

Anyways, later i made a fire and started to melt aluminium. It took a good hour or two. What annoyed me greatly is that when i was trying to stir the molten aluminium, it felt as the heat was almost like pulled into me. The flames constantly followed me around and the wind kept changing the direction.
At one point, i burned my hand by leaning on the grill (stupid move), but strangely, i didn't get burned as bad as i imagined to. The metal would have clearly scorched any organic materia in mere seconds. All i got was just a red stripe and a little of pain. No blisters, no nothing. How strange.
In the end, i think i had mold too many cans, that the metal just froze, even tho, the fire was much more hotter. I was able to salvage a good piece of it, but mostly was just oxides. *Sighs* <.<

Messing with people's thoughts using sound

I find it amusing how easy it is to break one's concentration.

I've been experimenting by imbuing a thought and a pattern into sound, when the sound is created, the pattern similar to one's thinking is broken and original thought overwritten with external thought.

I've been messing with mom lately. She's playing games i snip my fingers slowly and increase the speed (causing more careless thinking, concentration on sound instead of game) then when i think it's good enough, i create a louder one followed by silence (Thought:"What now? What am/was i doing?"). The moment she realized that she had been concentrating on sound, she already failed at the game.

Much easier is just saying:"You will fail." causing person to imagine failure and to subconsciously materialize it.
I've said "you will succeed" and that worked, but lot less. Probably i've programmed her to think of failure. Hmmh...

I was also messing with her when she was talking with her sister (originally, i wanted to try breaking thought pattern of her sister instead). I used quiet, high-pitched whistle, concentrating on imbuing the thought of nothingness. It was more effective than i thought. She started lagging, as if parts of thoughts were cut off.

It's fun to mess with people. But i will restrain myself from doing so. Either way, what right do i have to do so?