Random jibberish

It's funny, how people are curious of the unknown, even if they fear it. Take for example, my mom. She doesn't want me (not to speak of herself) do such things. Especially OBE.
Today, she asked me about it. I explained to her in detail, but she always asks this one:" But what if you can't come back?". I just say:"It depends if you WANT to come back. It all depends on what you want. Your will is your strongest weapon". She just shakes head and says:"Seems dangerous...". What's even more funny, is that suddenly spirituality has become dangerous lol.

I had so many un-posted stuff, that i decided to delete em all.

This morning was odd. Before i wake up, i hear see a schematic and then a voice follows:" Light can be broken down to even smaller particles. This message was sent to you by 'Seven Secret S ...' (Seven Secret senc... no...  something with "s"). Have a nice dream." I woke up and it kept bugging my mind for quite long time. It was like a message, rather than a part of dream. How odd. ;P
The schematic looked like it mainly consisted of resistor-like thingies, that took the light, then transformed it into something. Not sure into what.

Not much has happened really. Just this and that odd normal. No odd odd.

Dream log: I was killed twice, apparently. (+ general log)

I cannot remember getting killed twice, but so i said.

I'm not sure what was going on. Cannot remember. All i remember, is someone coming after me. He placed hand on my forehead and then it suddenly got really peaceful and my heart stopped. Soon, my heart started up again. 

Apart from that, the new year crap is boring. Everyone's having "fun" in the living room, whilist i am laying here in bed, listening to music and watching anime. These people bore me, so i say straight to the face:" I'll be in the other room, not existing for a certain period of time". Not to even mention mom's friends who brought their kids along... I really, really hate noise and nonsense.

Update of 11 Dec. 2013

11.12.13... what a boring year it has been.

I've been only getting weaker by day, always feeling so tired. I was strugling to stay awake at bus today (at morning and at evening).

Yesterday, at work, i didn't have anything to do and guess what i found.

It was shaking from cold. It just sat on my hand for quite the while. I showed the other people too. It was amusing to see how their mood brightened up to such a small thing.
In the end, i lost it. Today i found it again. I let it out of the window (it was gonna die either from starvation or cold). I'm saying "it" since i do not know if it was male or female. I think they don't have genders... can't remember.

Yesterday, training auric sight at home again. It tired me pretty a lot. Interesting things was, that at some point i could see all colors out of tunnel vision as auric colors. It kinda like overrided the normal one.
I attempted to see through objects too. It didn't quite work, but i remember, that the objects had this really strong etheric field... it looked like a glowing white halo around it.

Attempted RV when waiting behind the work door today (i arrived too early, again). It was more stronger than usually.

Also, ive noticed strange visual phenomena. I see energy lines (channels), but usually near them is moving sparkling colorful dots that fade.


Other events are insignificant, not worth mentioning. I'm using too much "it". Oh well.

Just a random update

Lots of deja vu's. Created fields of restoration around schools plants since they are in such bad shape. Tried reviving near-withered plant. Noticed that it barely had any energy left when compared with other nearby plants. Pin-pointed the energy channels and moved my own energy through it and left some there. Found it interesting.

Have been trying to move a ping pong ball (when will comes). So far, no significant movement. I keep losing my will after a couple of minutes.

Crazy heat after PE lesson today (barely did anything). Took the ping pong ball that i carry from my pocket, focused energy there and it got hot. It was still warm after 2 lessons. It's odd how energy does do what i want, yet does not work with TK. No matter what technique.

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I got a weird ... uhh... obsession? over sharp things. I REALLY like swords, knifes etc. At winters, i used to go out every day, build snowmen and cut em into hundreds of pieces with my homemade sword. I found it fun how things slowed down when i concentrated on them (hightened reflexes). Throw multiple things in air and hit them least twice. Most people consider me to be weird, but to me, it's really fun. To observe, to direct energy and strike with mind, rather than with physical strength. Like cutting thumb length thick ice blocks with a sword that will bend at any wrong move.

That reminds that i used to go out with -15C barefoot on snow and ice, for no apparent reason. You get used to it, if you focus on heat instead of cold.

General: What irritates me

What really irritates me is that people don't consider multiple possibilities. No matter if it's atheist, a conspiracy theorist, a religionist or what not. Once they think one way, they never consider the other.
(You read bedtime story. You believe it to be made up, but what if it has actually happened in another reality?)

I don't want to bring up examples, but since (nearly) nobody really reads this blog, i will.
For example, Michael, who keeps posting all kinds of conspiracy stuff on his facebook. He makes EVERYTHING sound so bad and dangerous. He's exactly like my freaking family doctor. "Oh don't eat this, take this plant instead --Wait! Don't drink that, that's bad for you! You shouldn't do that, it's wrong.". Seriously people. Nature (that means including humans), has the capability of adapting to different kinds of environment. We don't die from just some small change. So would you kindly stop creating pointless stress? (I've been drinking coca-cola which is claimed to be bad for you. I've been drinking it for years and far more than an average person. And I'm still alive, aren't I?)

Then there's scientists. "That's impossible." Then you prove it "it's probably *insert some stupid excuse here*". How hard is it to consider the possibility of impossible phenomena? And even if you are wrong, accept it. This is how we learn.

Religion... "The god is always right! Everything that's different is the spawn of satan!". Dear religionists, we have not insulted your ways, but understand, we do not wish believe it either. Those who want, will.

People, please, just for once, try thinking outside your box. Just consider the possibility of everything that you think and believe to be correct, wrong. There are lies out there.
So please, would you for once, set aside your ego and forms of thinking, and try to help each other instead?

Tracing flies and their patterns

Yesterday mom had her friend over and decided to "join" the conversation (which never happened, since the mom's friend is sorta obsessed with the joke of marrying me. [Damn you, past me! You just had to say that i love her. Worst mistake of my life]).
The majority of the time i decided to block myself out. Attempted to remote view which didn't come out as well as i wanted. Then i spotted that the flies strangely repeat certain patterns. At some points, it was nearly as they were drawing numbers and letters (I remember seeing "74462KML8e". The letters "KML" reminded me of the alphabet. And yes, i memorized it.).
Then i started to think about life. They were somehow repeating the number "8" only with corners, which seems to represent a sand clock, or even further -- time.
Then again, you could simply take "8" and turn it sideways and you get infinity and could be rephrased to "Life's just a loop with a twist".
At a point where i was about to stop, i took more time to concentrate on visualizing their flight patterns and for a brief moment, saw a 6-pointed star... hexagram or as some know "merkabah".

Then again, there were those weird moments when i visually saw the fly separate into 2 paths. It totally threw off my tracing.


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Also, the moon was rather bright and yellow yesterday. It was nice, but i didn't like it for some reason. I think white is better.
It had me thinking at some point, the name "sun of the night".

Dream log: The usual random dreams

 As usual, i cannot remember 100%. At the moment i am trying to back track and memorize what happened.

No good.

I'll start from the point i remember (maybe i'll remember in the process). It's nearing sunset again (i like the period before sunset, it's not so hot, not so bright, nice colors etc.). Then my neighbour (the one i bid farewell to) comes with an old van at high speeds, followed by dust clouds. She yells out of the window to come aboard. The moment i stepped in, she floors the pedals and car flies forward. I barely manage to hold on and go to sit on the right seat. She was great at driving so i made a comment:"You are way better driver than me! (I can't drive a car lol)". In the end of the road she drives back infront on my home, lets me off goes to park her car. I remember seeing her youngest (in the family, there are 3 sisters, the one i was with was the eldest). sister, quite grown-up (about 16-17), on their bikes with some 2 dudes who i have never seen before (not that i have seen her with any by any means).
It's sunset but still quite bright. I'm sitting on a step, watching the sun. From the corner of my eye i see the eldest again. Her top was totally naked (I don't fantasize anyone. Wouldn't it be awkward to have someone staring at you while you are naked? I think it would.). She stood next to me while i was holding my hand up, she said something absurd, i didn't reply and went upstairs to watch anime. --

Oh, right. Now i remembered another part. I was waiting for teachers in somewhere else (because i had a lot of undone stuff. And still do in reality too!). I remember seeing old physics teacher, present English teacher, old ... uhh.. psychology or what you call it? teacher and old maths teacher who never showed up. For some reason, they looked sorta "dere (meaning "cute", "shy")"-ish. Nonetheless, they've never been kind to me so i was in my douce bag mood (don't give a crap about their life since all they caused me is negativity, return only negative).
I never really got to know what the hell was going on. They wanted me to do homework (i'm a lazy asshole, i have no time for their brainwashing lol). So i was kinda like "Get on with it already!" "Umm, i'd like you to do a report on this and that" "K, what the hell do you want?" etc.

And that's my natural reaction to people i hate. My moto is:"What you do to me, i'll return it tenfold".

Dream log: When playing games in reality doesn't suffice...

Each morning i think "I should wake up or i can't later..." and then i'm like... "hell, let the future me worry about that". *Falls back asleep*.
Since i ran out of good dreams today, i decided to play a game.... no clue what it was. Some warfare game... should have attempted OBE instead. (Lazy me strikes again! *Tooth shine with SFX: Ka-ching*)

There was a dream before it.... it was rather absurd. Some sort of festival where a ton of people die. I'm not sure what the cause was... I think it was either tornado or some sort of disease. It didn't exactly have gloomy environment to it, but it wasn't vivid either.

Melting metal

I was melting aluminium outside today. I wanted to use alcohol and one of those old torches what runs on gasoline. ... It got my adrenaline running quite the bit. When i lit it, the pressure and flame only got worse by the second. It was nearly as my fear was amplifying it. At one point, the flame was coming out with such pressure, that the flame extinguished. I was relieved that it was over. Clearly it was a bad idea to use alcohol instead of gasoline. Maybe i put too much pressure into it too.... eheheh... whoops!

Anyways, later i made a fire and started to melt aluminium. It took a good hour or two. What annoyed me greatly is that when i was trying to stir the molten aluminium, it felt as the heat was almost like pulled into me. The flames constantly followed me around and the wind kept changing the direction.
At one point, i burned my hand by leaning on the grill (stupid move), but strangely, i didn't get burned as bad as i imagined to. The metal would have clearly scorched any organic materia in mere seconds. All i got was just a red stripe and a little of pain. No blisters, no nothing. How strange.
In the end, i think i had mold too many cans, that the metal just froze, even tho, the fire was much more hotter. I was able to salvage a good piece of it, but mostly was just oxides. *Sighs* <.<