So today i got the answers for the 24h ECG. What they said is that i get "panic attacks" at certain times (even tho i messed with it, the times were off.).
A little bit earlier, i was really tired and decided to take a nap. Woke up because it was so hot and my heart was racing like hell, feeling bad as hell. For about 30 minutes, i attempted to lower it by will alone. I did succeed, but it raised back up. Later, had to ask some sort of medicine that would slow it down... took some, down, now for about 10 minutes later, it's back up again and i'm feeling sleepy as hell. It's sitting around 100-130. And, it's hot as hell again. It feels as if i'm running right now.
All i can say, is that i'm feeling weird right now. I'm nowhere as conscious as i should be and i lack control over my body.
We'll see if i live til' tomorrow. If yes, then i'll be uploading the ECG report soon.
Showing posts with label Physical. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Physical. Show all posts
Monday, September 23, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
Here it goes again.
Depression, it's knocking again, but this time it brought more side-effects. It's getting more frequent and i have still no idea what causes it.
Years back (about 2-3), at english lesson (at morning), we were supposed to read loudly text. For some reason, i couldn't read the text. Whenever i tried to read , i saw it as blank. I saw no letters, no text. All i saw was white-ness. I managed to somehow sputter out some words by rapidly changing focus. Look away, back, read, look away, back, read. The delay was less than 2 seconds. It creeped me out quite a lot. I went home. Took a nap, and all was OK again. Mom said the cause might have been tiredness, but i highly doubt it. Tiredness causes blurriness, not inability to recognize black.
Also, few days into training auric sight, now everything is freaking glowing... constantly. Especially at night time.
(Sighs), This is so tiring...
Years back (about 2-3), at english lesson (at morning), we were supposed to read loudly text. For some reason, i couldn't read the text. Whenever i tried to read , i saw it as blank. I saw no letters, no text. All i saw was white-ness. I managed to somehow sputter out some words by rapidly changing focus. Look away, back, read, look away, back, read. The delay was less than 2 seconds. It creeped me out quite a lot. I went home. Took a nap, and all was OK again. Mom said the cause might have been tiredness, but i highly doubt it. Tiredness causes blurriness, not inability to recognize black.
Also, few days into training auric sight, now everything is freaking glowing... constantly. Especially at night time.
(Sighs), This is so tiring...
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Dreams and physical: More dreams and weird experiences
Physical log:
Usually, people who know us we know them don't ring the bell and come in right away. My usual reaction when it does ring, i attempt to change the reality to it non-existent. Yesterday when i did it, i suddenly felt as someone was holding from my neck, pressure builded up and my whole body temperature felt much much higher. It felt as my body was on fire. The sensation lasted about 10-20 seconds. It was a bit frightening.
Dream log:
Had some weird dreams again. Something about cold fusion (i have no knowledge on it or what so ever). Some people were meddling with gas at winter that had something to do with gravity or the magnetic field. No clue.
The second was a class trip to some place. It was icy. Some guy slipped, a girl jumped to save him (even that i was much closer, i just didn't care), showed her thumbs up since she had the face that she made herself look weird. She showed it back and smiled. It was nearly as we were having telepathic conversation.
The third one was somewhat a continuation of the second. Another bus trip. Only thing is that we were handed bombs and if you were to release the button, ti'd explode. It was nothing like that tho. I died only once. Or think i did at least. There was more than 10 sec delay to it.
Fourth dream. Some old house. I believe we were searching for someone. Not sure who.
Fifth was yesterday. Came from Rakvere, saw a huge bowl looking thing near the top of the radio transmitter post. In the bowl there were trees and bushes growing. The only questions i had were "how is it standing there?" and "Who even put it there?".
Here's a quick sketch of what i meant.
Usually, people who know us we know them don't ring the bell and come in right away. My usual reaction when it does ring, i attempt to change the reality to it non-existent. Yesterday when i did it, i suddenly felt as someone was holding from my neck, pressure builded up and my whole body temperature felt much much higher. It felt as my body was on fire. The sensation lasted about 10-20 seconds. It was a bit frightening.
Dream log:
Had some weird dreams again. Something about cold fusion (i have no knowledge on it or what so ever). Some people were meddling with gas at winter that had something to do with gravity or the magnetic field. No clue.
The second was a class trip to some place. It was icy. Some guy slipped, a girl jumped to save him (even that i was much closer, i just didn't care), showed her thumbs up since she had the face that she made herself look weird. She showed it back and smiled. It was nearly as we were having telepathic conversation.
The third one was somewhat a continuation of the second. Another bus trip. Only thing is that we were handed bombs and if you were to release the button, ti'd explode. It was nothing like that tho. I died only once. Or think i did at least. There was more than 10 sec delay to it.
Fourth dream. Some old house. I believe we were searching for someone. Not sure who.
Fifth was yesterday. Came from Rakvere, saw a huge bowl looking thing near the top of the radio transmitter post. In the bowl there were trees and bushes growing. The only questions i had were "how is it standing there?" and "Who even put it there?".
Here's a quick sketch of what i meant.
Monday, August 5, 2013
General: More furiocity
More trouble. I have to go to the family doctor who is an egoist and tries to feed natural pills to everyone, and if that doesn't work she just finds another excuse.
It's a trouble for me because i have to get the letter from her. I know that you want to be "Big and powerful" but get over it. Stop playing all-wise. And what's worse, i have to do an EKG over there. It's no use or whatever to me.
There's one thing i've never understood. I am a patient, right? Yet i am not shown any of the information on myself. WTF. Are you saying that the information is more valuable than live person? I should totally have the permission to view and have the info. If someone actually could have the info, they might be able to figure out their problems.
I'm one of those people who wants to know as much as possible about myself, so i could destroy those limits. Even if i have no idea what's written on the info, i'll learn about it. I'll find someone who knows about it. So what's the problem? Why exactly am i not allowed to know?
It's a trouble for me because i have to get the letter from her. I know that you want to be "Big and powerful" but get over it. Stop playing all-wise. And what's worse, i have to do an EKG over there. It's no use or whatever to me.
There's one thing i've never understood. I am a patient, right? Yet i am not shown any of the information on myself. WTF. Are you saying that the information is more valuable than live person? I should totally have the permission to view and have the info. If someone actually could have the info, they might be able to figure out their problems.
I'm one of those people who wants to know as much as possible about myself, so i could destroy those limits. Even if i have no idea what's written on the info, i'll learn about it. I'll find someone who knows about it. So what's the problem? Why exactly am i not allowed to know?
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