Blenderin n' stuff (12.02.2014)

Been studying Blender for quite the while now. Following BlenderGuru's and BlenderCookie's tutorials, learning new stuff. I should learn more about rigging. Not much new stuff pops up anymore.
The latest i've made are these.

(Had to covert into jpeg... google apparently doesn't like png's for some reason.)

I'm just gonna leave the links here if anyone ever wants to download. I really don't care. I just do it for knowledge, and hope to get better.

Desert-sky-night

Sakura-starry-night

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There have been some minor geisting going on. The one that surprised me the most was when i woke up (around 8 at evening), sat in computer chair and watched 'Reporter' for a while. When the voting part came in, left side of the tv glitched out for a moment. It was quite interesting.

PK is rather stable. I constantly have the feeling that if i need to use it, i can.. well... i somewhat do. When trucks drive past through a puddle of water, i would attempt to create a wall. Or i would purposely step forcefully into a puddle (which sets the water and half-mold snow flying around me), i would try suspending them in air.

Not much really is going on right now. I'm tired, that's the main thing (even though we only had 2 lessons today... teacher was "sick"). Well, either way, the current life is rather boring. Constrained.
No OBE's, some odd dreams (which i can't remember except the fact something bad happened), some stuff pulled my mood pretty down, felt disgusted and guilty. Yeah... that's pretty much all.

A great song + some other stuff

I really love this song, so i created a lyric video for it (yeah... after failing for gaz-zillion times due to some bug with Vegas GPU acceleration... no idea). Listen and think.
This is another reason why i love melodeath. It has incredibly deep lyrics that usually talk about life and negative stuff related to it. I guess it could be called "Spiritual metal". :P

    

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After i woke in the morning to post the thing about OBE, i couldn't sleep for at least an hour.
By now, i feel ok and ready to try again. I wasn't expecting to get over it so fast, though. In a way, i love this fear, this experience. It reminds me of my childhood. In fact, it felt nearly exactly the same.

There's one thing that bothers me. The noise. I remember them even from my childhood dreams. Especially when there where these unbearable noise, then in a snap of fingers, complete dead silence.


Once i get fully and willingly OBE, i will answer all unanswered questions. I will not give up. May it kill me or not, i have no other reason of existence. I will overcome my fear. I will find the reason why i even exist.

Freaky OBE/Dream

I'm writing this at 5 in the morning, just because it was quite freaky.

It was originally a part of a dream. It was daytime and i would attempt OBE. I was fly fighting with someone in that OBE/dream. I hear someone say this:"If you want to go OBE, you have to switch with me. You have to become me, and me, you. Just say whenever you are ready." At that point... i was. I said... "I'm ready". Suddenly, i see a pair of eyes, i hear screams in the background (kinda like the ones when you normally do... that kind of noise). It really started to scare me and i said:"Stop, i had enough for now". And guess what, The light switches from daytime to nighttime, several times... i realized... i'm already awake.

Fuck... that was damn scary. This will clearly cause some set-backs to my OBE training.

I think that who i spoke to was myself. "You have to become me, and me you". Hmm... interesting. Well, anyways, i'm gonna try sleeping. I don't have enough courage at the moment to try again.

Random jibberish

It's funny, how people are curious of the unknown, even if they fear it. Take for example, my mom. She doesn't want me (not to speak of herself) do such things. Especially OBE.
Today, she asked me about it. I explained to her in detail, but she always asks this one:" But what if you can't come back?". I just say:"It depends if you WANT to come back. It all depends on what you want. Your will is your strongest weapon". She just shakes head and says:"Seems dangerous...". What's even more funny, is that suddenly spirituality has become dangerous lol.

I had so many un-posted stuff, that i decided to delete em all.

This morning was odd. Before i wake up, i hear see a schematic and then a voice follows:" Light can be broken down to even smaller particles. This message was sent to you by 'Seven Secret S ...' (Seven Secret senc... no...  something with "s"). Have a nice dream." I woke up and it kept bugging my mind for quite long time. It was like a message, rather than a part of dream. How odd. ;P
The schematic looked like it mainly consisted of resistor-like thingies, that took the light, then transformed it into something. Not sure into what.

Not much has happened really. Just this and that odd normal. No odd odd.

OBE: Questions

Last night i attempted it since 21:00 til' ???. I somewhat succeeded.
For the majority of the time, i was trying to transfer my awareness from here to somewhere else. It didn't quite work. I started attempting something else. I would let go of my body and focus my awareness somewhere "higher" in my mind. It worked. I suddenly lost control over body and knew the sensation. OBE. But when i kept concentrating on the sensation the "noise" kept getting louder and louder, until i couldn't take it anymore. It was the same high-pitched sound. It felt like my head was going to explode (if i would go any further).

And there's my question... What is that noise/sound?

(I noticed that after the noise, the world wasn't that lucid either. I fell asleep too, but it seems to serve as some sort of "keep consciousness awake" signal. Perhaps try to stabilize it?)