Update of 24.06.2015

Wow. Haven't had a lot of opportunities to write a log.

Well. Today, in the dream (I think it was a dream), I went OBE in a dream (soooo I made myself lucid? Hmm, i dunno). Did that 3 times. I might be actually capable of pulling it off in real life now. I still remember how it happened, so that's a good thing.

The "meeting" with the girl went just fine. In fact, too well I think. She keeps wanting to play games now.
Funny thing is, that we have so much in common. Like "wtf" much. Our families, personalities, likes are nearly identical.

So, we played Cry of Fear. She gets scared really easily, but, then there was this... <.<

And Portal 2 Coop

There is a weird thing I have noticed. It's not as if i'm looking with my eyes. It's as if i'm not in my own body anymore. It's as if i'm looking "at my body" rather "from my body". It's weird.

Also, as for delusions, I saw a huge (about the size of a fist) black butterfly flapping next to me. Had to move to the side for a second, since it seemed just weird.

Oh, and I love these. Takes it back to psiwheel days :P
http://9gag.com/gag/axG269L

Update of 18.06.2015

(Takes a deep breath) Helped someone, became friends, then really started to trust each other, both of us are shy and shared how our voices sound like (through a video). Even that made my heart feel like exploding. I can watch someone die right in front of my eyes and that was more nerve-wracking to me. And now she wants to play games with me. I don't know what to do. I haven't spoken to a female since childhood. Good god. Haven't ever felt this nervous before.

I'm developing some weird reaction towards light. The brighter it is, the more hazed my mind gets. It's as if I can't think then. Maybe i'm becoming a vampire. I sleep pretty long too. Well, that's a plus for me.

Nights have gone fairly sleepless. Had some usual random dreams.


Oh boy. This is gonna be awkward.

Final: Leaning girl

I'm done. F*cking done. 2 hours on hair and still can't get it to look like I want. Now i'm questioning how I have managed to do the other ones that well. Maybe the gradient wasn't intense enough? *shrugs*. Well, at least I got this far. Way further than with any other projects. But it took too much time. Need to rethink my approach on certain things.

I'm actually quite satisfied with the final result. The manga face somehow actually worked out in the end. But still. Waaaaay to much colors. Makes my head ache.

EDIT: The blogger viewer sucks. The normal is better. 

Update of 11.06.2015

A lot of delusions last night. I despise those long legged spiders. I know they are harmless, but I really dislike them. I'm unsure, if I actually saw one or not. I mean, I remember staring at it like "You ain't moving anywhere. You are gonna die". It was way over 30 seconds. When I went to get something, it was gone. Like never existed. Sat on the floor for 3 hours, playing guitar (since midnight), in hopes of spotting it. There were many 'jumps'. Like something clearly moved, yet it wasn't there. The time when I went to death (<-- wtf did i just write). *went to sleep, i had been awake for 16 hours. Who knows. Maybe i'm taking small steps towards schizophrenia. Not the first time when i feel being watched by inanimate things or having empathy towards them.

I remember lucid dreams. Something about a museum. Something about some sort of statues somewhere in Estonia. Me and some other people were going to these various rooms that were set up. Each room had different themes. We went to a cat-themed room. When I entered, i thought i had entered the wrong room somehow. Everyone was suited up and somehow really formal. I just stood there and listened to the speech that one gave. It was about pure-blooded cats. He explained how hard their lives are and for some reason, it made me wanna cry. When it was over, I sat down and spoke to a female person (I never initiate a conversation. Even that was weird to myself). Don't know why, but everything she said, made pure-blooded cats look exactly to normal ones. (shrugs). We had one hour left of time. Went to 'ahhaa'-themed room. Eh. It was a disappointment.

I remember places also points of time where I just watched the scenery. It was evening scenery with pink-purple-orange-red sky. 

My mind is quite hazy today. Head aches a bit.

Update of 10.06.2015

Well, I caught up with Noblesse last night. Now I've got nothing more to read, drawing it is.

Almost 9 hours of straight working. Stacking up the firewood. Can't say i'm tired, but the underneaths' of feet used to hurt quite the bit. Mind is hazy (physically below normal, so my mind takes the toll). But it's all OK now. Seems like most of the physical body has healed to it's normal.
The total size was 10 m3. Not sure what you call them in English, but in Estonian, it's called ruumimeetrit.

As for SAI's reverse engineering, I've made some progress, but can't quite still understand the flow of it's mechanism. Should most likely set breakpoints and see if I can follow it somehow.

Logically, don't exactly need the other two except 'Sai_Trial'. If I could send it down the correct path, it should sort itself out. If that doesn't work, probably gonna have to disable it.

I did examine the cracked exe, but it seemed bizarre. It just "push"ed 1 many times. Seemed weird... odd. Cannot understand how that works.

So. Few hours have passed. I took a look and the person who reversed it, had completely removed the code. Does seem to make sense because I tried following it and changing for multiple times, but caused a chain of errors. Should try jumping straight to the endpoint. Whatever route i took, only seemed to mess up the WindowTitle. Not sure if it had any effect on the licence. Probably not.

Eh... reversing is such a bummer.

Painting the 'leaning girl'... (sighs)

I despise my own painting skills. Like I said earlier, I can 'copy' others skills, but I cannot 'create' something new without full understanding. My 'style', is simply a combination of styles i've seen.
This meaning, I cannot fuse manga with what I currently have, especially the face. I've seen others drawings, but I cannot understand how.
(My learning process: External stimuli -> Reverse / break down -> Analyze -> Reconstruct)

And I have a tendency to use too much colors.

So, I gave up on the background.

(Flips table), fuck this. I'm not painting for a while again.

The life of a fucking perfectionist. (sighs)

Line-art: Leaning girl?

This finishes most of the line-art, though I am still unsure what the clothes will look like (which probably means I need to edit it). This is by far one of my most cleanest ones yet.

This alone took me 1.3h to 'finish'. Mainly getting the face proportions to look right (though the nose still annoys me a bit).

Color scheme:

Scarf: Red
Hair: Blond? Remains to be seen
Shirt & pants area: brownish or blueish, giving contrast to upper area.
Background: Something dark or abstract

Also, this is how I do guides for painting, but can't do any painting due to PS being an ass and crashing the graphics driver for who knows why. Probably some crap with Win 8 compatibility. And all that means that I have to restart to get it back working. Can't be bothered. I'd rather see if I can get The Witcher 1 working. Great game, but man, 3'rd is way too high spec'd. :(

Testing out SAI

Much MUCH better for line-art than PS, though lacks in painting capabilities. No worries. It's good that it supports PSD format, which basically allows me to jump back and forth between the two.

Something I did earlier (had to clean up a bit now, so took time :/ ):

It was supposed to be somewhat like "Noblesse"-style, but he's drawing style is quite unique. Eyes developed from rhombus and the drawings he makes are incredibly detailed for a manga, or should I say 'manwha' (korean comic, basically). Mine turned out somehow a mix of Fullmetal Alchemist and his.

So yeah, Sketch (PS) -> Line art (SAI) -> Shading (PS).

And I got to get rid of the stupid habit of using random lines to "generate" a complete imagination of the object. Way too messy and takes too long to clean up.

But without doubt, I'm taking leaps in learning to draw. Might as well keep going until I have the motivation.

Update of 3.06.2015

Was searching for a crack for SAI 1.2.0 for the past 4 hours. No luck. Could take a look with OllyDBG, but at this point, i'm too buzzed to do it.

Aside that, SAI seems like a great tool for line-work. Like seriously, you could get nowhere near that with Photoshop. In fact, I'm considering moving over to SAI, once I get the hang of the workflow.

Had to make a new ... I don't know what you can call it? I guess a "plank" will do. Don't exactly fancy the idea of laptop on lap without any ventilation. Anyways, had to give the damn "plank" a coating, so the laptop won't be running away, which of course rendered most of my day empty. Well, not that empty. I had the time to swear at the clouds for not bringing any thunder lol (even though, the clouds were very low in altitude and blue-ish. There were high altitude clouds as well, earth is fairly warm, so wtf?). Though, seems the coating was too thin and uneven. Probably going to sand it and recoat. More time for nonsensical stuff.

(Most of the time, while staring at the clouds, went something in the melody of Thunderstruck while in mind yelling "Thund'ah!" lol. This is exactly the reason I should, by all means, NOT be bored. :D )


Oh well. Time to hit the hay.

Testing out IOGraph

Wanted to try out IOGraph (software that follows and creates a map of mouse movements). Spent 45 minutes on this (Certainly an overkill):

... and my pattern recognition sees a damn pentagram in there. Though I have heard or seen something about using a pentagram as a human model. (shrugs).

Well. One thing is certain. I need to get a much better at creating straight and curved lines.