Had a rough night. Attempted to sleep and do OBE. Both failed. Had some weird porn going through my head and i stood awake until it got bright (around 3-4 at the morning). I just couldn't stop it. The last thing i remember is slapping myself in the face and being able to sleep. Guess mental resistance didn't work. (It was like someone kept sending these clips and images, i kept pushing away and saying "Shh.." which echoed through my mind).
And now, watching videos of jet engines and after burner on youtube, i got the feeling as somebody would say "I love you". ... You know... that utter happiness. Accepting everything as is. All i can say right now... "What the fuck is going on". I already am having a slight headache of all of it.
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