Remote sight? Too mainstream! ;)

I've never heard anyone use remote taste or smell, or even hearing. Touch is technically a basis of PK.

I did a quick test. It seems rather simple and easy to learn. I was watching from my window, a smoke from the chimney. I attempted to smell it. It worked. I'm not sure who actually reads this but they might thing "Heh! Everyone can remember the smell of smoke!" but can you remember the smell of burnt shale oil? That is what i smelled.

Also, interesting thing is to try separate these smells to their full potential.


Remote tasting is rather common actually. People constantly use it subconsciously. You see a food, you faintly know how it tastes. What about a food that you never had? I have also tried that. I'm not a big fan of cakes. In fact, i hate them. So whenever there's a birthday, my mom buys one. The simple trick to it is to "imagine" eating it. Concentrate on how it feels... tastes.

The real fun is that all senses are inter-linked. What you see is what you taste, smell, feel and hear.
You can go around, tasting things without physically interacting with them.


Wanna be a spy? Look at a person and listen. Block out all other noise.

The human nature is suprisingly simple, yet complicated at the same time. Boring, yet at the same time interesting. Dark and light. Fire and water. Everything's equal. Everything is actually the same.

The weird me

I've never really done a real post about this. My own belief who i am, may sound weird, but a heavily modified human.
You may ask, why i think i so. Here's the complete story. It'll probably be very distorted. A piece from here and there.

A few years ago I started discovering this weirdness. My cecum died instantly (for no purpose). Then when i went to the eye doctor thingy, my sight was near perfect, even tho i'm CONSTANTLY on PC for nearly half the day, stare at the sun, be in pitch dark, nothing has affected it. I don't even need glasses, since doctors lately labeled me as "weird and mystic" since i defy their explanations. A year ago, i went to Tartu to get my sight checked again. I ended up messing with the machines there. Run to this room, then back, and again back to the machine. I was sorta angered but also laughing, because they were like:"WTF?? How's this possible? We need more tests". They made pointless attempts at solving it, by using the manual way. By putting on those weird glasses, but all that that did, was move the object closer and further, it did not sharpen or anything. I spent a ton of time there and nearly missed the bus because of them. The machine thought my eyes were -7. I tried to explain that i can send a signal for my eyes to "auto-focus" but they were like "What? That's bullshit.". Either way, they didn't find anything in the end. Just pure waste of time.
Years ago (where the whole journey took place), i went to get my ears checked. The same thing happened, i was running between building because apparently my ears percieve different frequencies. One that listens to higher frequencies, and the other that listens to bass (right one, love to listen to bass on songs) etc.
So later, they sent me to Tartu again, to get my ears checked. The same result. Once again, waste of time.
At the moment they are considering it to be BOR syndrome, which i highly doubt.

I still have weird marks on my legs (had to give a ton of urine for them, they found nothing). Haven't had the chance to go check heart yet, but i know it's off as well (when i'm about to do physical, it fires up to around 170, as a warm-up. I haven't been capable of reaching 200 yet. Normal is 90-110). Also, embarrasment or talking to girls makes my face go totally red and as in surrounded by fire. It reminds me of kundalini for some reason.

They found nothing wrong with my internals.

Sometimes, i sense a smell very clearly, no matter how far or faint it may be (kinda like dogs).

Hands and feet are always cold.

That's as much as i know at the moment, but there's clearly enough evidence i'm not quite human. It's fun to annoy doctors. They can't just figure it out lol. Most people who know this probably refer to me as UFO or mutant. I don't care lol.

Drawing for hours + Some general

Been drawing and coloring over 4 hours by now. Time to end for today.

You know one of these E-cigars? My dad owns 2. They were charging so i wanted to speed up the charging progress. I accidentally geisted it's program. When it charges, it blinks every 1 sec, now when it blinks, it does 2 blinks and then 3 in a row.... Hehehe.... Whoops!

But what bugs me is why won't my PK work with certain things like TK or PK. Even if it does it has minimal results, meanwhile electronics may fry when i touch them. Good thing i haven't been light pulsing in a while, The lights haven't burned out in a while now.

Had a TERRIBLE stomach ache. Kinda like when i once had to get cecum (organ) removed (don't want that pain. It's so intense that it makes you puke and moan in pain. It feels as if someone had stabbed you). Now when i had it, i had pressure on the point where it was supposed to be, like as in it had regrown. I had no painkiller either. Energy was capable of subsiding it for a very short while. Good thing it went over.

Random feelings and thoughts

Had a rough night. Attempted to sleep and do OBE. Both failed. Had some weird porn going through my head and i stood awake until it got bright (around 3-4 at the morning). I just couldn't stop it. The last thing i remember is slapping myself in the face and being able to sleep. Guess mental resistance didn't work. (It was like someone kept sending these clips and images, i kept pushing away and saying "Shh.." which echoed through my mind).

And now, watching videos of jet engines and after burner on youtube, i got the feeling as somebody would say "I love you". ... You know... that utter happiness. Accepting everything as is. All i can say right now... "What the fuck is going on". I already am having a slight headache of all of it.

Dream log: The usual random dreams

 As usual, i cannot remember 100%. At the moment i am trying to back track and memorize what happened.

No good.

I'll start from the point i remember (maybe i'll remember in the process). It's nearing sunset again (i like the period before sunset, it's not so hot, not so bright, nice colors etc.). Then my neighbour (the one i bid farewell to) comes with an old van at high speeds, followed by dust clouds. She yells out of the window to come aboard. The moment i stepped in, she floors the pedals and car flies forward. I barely manage to hold on and go to sit on the right seat. She was great at driving so i made a comment:"You are way better driver than me! (I can't drive a car lol)". In the end of the road she drives back infront on my home, lets me off goes to park her car. I remember seeing her youngest (in the family, there are 3 sisters, the one i was with was the eldest). sister, quite grown-up (about 16-17), on their bikes with some 2 dudes who i have never seen before (not that i have seen her with any by any means).
It's sunset but still quite bright. I'm sitting on a step, watching the sun. From the corner of my eye i see the eldest again. Her top was totally naked (I don't fantasize anyone. Wouldn't it be awkward to have someone staring at you while you are naked? I think it would.). She stood next to me while i was holding my hand up, she said something absurd, i didn't reply and went upstairs to watch anime. --

Oh, right. Now i remembered another part. I was waiting for teachers in somewhere else (because i had a lot of undone stuff. And still do in reality too!). I remember seeing old physics teacher, present English teacher, old ... uhh.. psychology or what you call it? teacher and old maths teacher who never showed up. For some reason, they looked sorta "dere (meaning "cute", "shy")"-ish. Nonetheless, they've never been kind to me so i was in my douce bag mood (don't give a crap about their life since all they caused me is negativity, return only negative).
I never really got to know what the hell was going on. They wanted me to do homework (i'm a lazy asshole, i have no time for their brainwashing lol). So i was kinda like "Get on with it already!" "Umm, i'd like you to do a report on this and that" "K, what the hell do you want?" etc.

And that's my natural reaction to people i hate. My moto is:"What you do to me, i'll return it tenfold".

Moon gazing

It;s such a nice view at the moment. Too bad my camera can't pick it up. It feels as living in a dream. It feels very lucid. Last year and the year before it was the same. From 24 th july to 10 Aug is simply magnificent moon.

If there's one thing worth my time on earth that would be it. Beautiful moon, cold night, no wind and complete silence. Wish this could last forever.

Dream log: Being a girl is awesome!

I've always wanted to be able to transform into girl at will. It would be so much fun, If i find my current presence boring, i could be someone else. :D

In my dream, i was a girl (noticed that only when going to the bathroom), i had really long hair (over my hip) so i could simply grab em from behind. The other stuff was all not important.


Why i always wanted to have the ability to transform between male and female, is to  see the differences in each's lifestyle. What problems and so on. Plus, i could have breasts! How awesome is that! lol. xD

Dream log: Finally!! A fun dream!

The dream did not really have a storyline. It was just a lot of daily things and memories mixed together.

But what i LOVED, and truly did, was the 3-D Manuver Gear from Shingeki no kyojin (Attack on titan). It was so fun flying around. It truly felt liberating. So much freedom. The wind breezing past you, falling and getting pulled back up. Freaking amazing. It was fun standing on a vertical wall.

Ah. So much fun. Sometimes i wish i could live in a dream, instead in this reality. Reality is just a crappy game.

Someone's desperate to get my attention

I'm not quite sure how long it has been til' now. Years? Until then, i haven't really paid a lot of attention to it. I always get the feeling of someone being next to me, it's not negative. Sometimes it pulls the chair, steps on the bed, moves air and pressure and in meditation it sometimes touches softly as in not to startle.
Whenever i do sense it, my heart chakra goes off. That pain comes.
It feels nearly as i know that person, but it's not no one from this reality. It's strange. I want to get OBE already. A full one.

Talking about OBEs, i had crappy results the last few weeks. No hypnogogia.... NOTHING. F*ck. (Takes a breath)... I WILL get out today.

Dissolving colors of the rainbow in my mind

It was raining, then sun shining, again raining and so on. There was a rainbow multiple times. I had nothing to do that moment, so i attempted dissolving the colors of rainbow one by one, in my mind. Started from the highest to lowest. They actually did vanish from my mind sight (as in watching it, then fades away, but not actually gone). It would be interesting to meditate using rainbows.


I hate how people can't see uses for "useless" things, so they throw them away. To me, what they call "trash" are objects, that have not found their purpose yet. Destruction and creation. What people see, is only destruction.

Dream log: Visit places from past lives

For this dream, i can't really start from no certain point. It consisted of previous dream scenery. I remember going around sensing people. For some reason, they were thinking highly of me and then there were those who hated me. I remember meeting a "pure person (a person who radiates different kind of energy. Composed only of positivity)"
Then i remember sensing someone. I think it was Sussch again (i cannot remember faces, i remember people by feelings). We visited some secret places that was left behind from our past lives. I remember entering a room filled with metal parts. No clue what that was supposed to be. The place itself was below earth just enough for light to come in.

That's pretty much it.... I left around 80% details out. It would've gone too long and then i would've deleted it.

Just a general update

I've gained even further control over energy, sensing and visualizing with no effort at all. That proves that training mindlessly does not improve your abilities.
Today, going through the grocery shop, i could easily see everyone's energy field and aura (i've separated the two. One is where i concentrate on it's length, amount and potential ,the other where i analyze it in color spectrums and in feelings.).

I had another dream but i can't remember it. I woke up at 6 am because i was already good to go. Forced myself back to sleep... barely succeeded. Can't recall seeing anything important.

Went to melt metal once again. Tin this time (aluminium is way too time consuming). Splashed a little bit of molten tin on my hand. Once again, no burns, no nothing. How odd. It's nearly as some sort of subconscious defence.


I'm feeling weird again. The depression's knocking on the door again. Go away. I'm feeling crap even without you. If you come back with a better future, then i'll accept you.

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Music: A7X - Brompton Cocktail

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Re-edit:

The weird moment when you can't recognize your own voice on a recording.
It's totally true. In occasions, my voice changes. Yet only it changes when i'm in certain mood. If i'm nervous, my voice sounds weird. Maybe it's just because i'm used to not using it, and when i even use it, i speak so silently. Most of the times people say that "i speak under my breath". The truth is that if people would listen, they would understand. (OBE vibrations at 0:07 in wake state of mind)

Dream log: ... I have no words to describe this dream...

Well, least i've come to accept who i am at the moment.

I can't recall exactly everything. I remember going to a wrestling competition (i didn't take part in it, it's been long time since i have done that stuff). We went to pick up our teacher (Environment: Sunset, a white house in the midst of nowhere, fence around it). I can't remember speaking to him, but we did go through the house.
The next thing is that i meet up with old classmates and wrestling buddies. One of them asks:"Think you can lift that weight?" "Hell no, man! I haven't trained in years. I've become weak". To my surprise, he just left the topic there. No teasing or anything. It felt sorta awkward. He went to lift it himself, asked me to be there just in case. After a while, he struggles to get it up, asks for my help. I touch one side, and then run for the other to pull it up. It was as if i had left one of my hands out there.

The next thing i know, i am at a night club (i hate any rowdy place). There was this kid, alone. She didn't cry. Just stared at people dancing. I felt as she felt as being abandoned. I was sitting on a couch, thinking how stupid that is... people just shaking their bodies for no apparent reason (since there are easier ways of self-expressing). Then that kid approaches me, sits on my lap, throws her arms around me and takes a nap. I kinda froze there, probably totally red from the face. Yet strangely, it felt really .... good. It felt as all my problems dissolved. It was so relaxing. It nearly felt as she was resonating with me. This went on for quite the while... or maybe it just felt like that. Some time later, a former classmate comes and asks the girl something.... i couldn't hear over the chatter etc, but what i did hear was something that totally shocked me. The guy asked:"Hey, you OK?" The girl replied:"Yes, but he (me) isn't.". The girl was rather young, yet was capable of reading me like clear water. The guy went back to dancing and she continued napping.


I thank you, little girl. I truly do. I feel as someone was finally able to understand me entirely. You managed to put a smile on my face, just for a brief moment, but it was more than enough. I hope i meet you again or in this reality.

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Edit: I think all those lolis (meaning usually "cute underage girl") are either people from other realities or parts of my subconscious attempting to comfort me. Either way, they mean a lot to me. If it weren't for them, i would have been in deep depression and probably killed myself already.

Dream log: When playing games in reality doesn't suffice...

Each morning i think "I should wake up or i can't later..." and then i'm like... "hell, let the future me worry about that". *Falls back asleep*.
Since i ran out of good dreams today, i decided to play a game.... no clue what it was. Some warfare game... should have attempted OBE instead. (Lazy me strikes again! *Tooth shine with SFX: Ka-ching*)

There was a dream before it.... it was rather absurd. Some sort of festival where a ton of people die. I'm not sure what the cause was... I think it was either tornado or some sort of disease. It didn't exactly have gloomy environment to it, but it wasn't vivid either.

So i was bored yesterday...

... and i decided to draw.

The blood splatter totally failed, haha. It came out kinda odd... maybe i'm not just used to seeing colors. Who knows (*Shrugs*).

Dream log: What remains of our little bond

A little back story first.
We all know that nothing last for forever, but it does. Another paradox. I used to have quite the good relationship with my neighbours. Years ago, we grew apart and now neither really talks to each other. We just walk across each other like complete strangers. In a matter of fact, i take the blame onto myself. I'm not quite sure what happened, but i just ... i guess i grew tired of them. Even tho i don't really like the "new", grown-up version of them, i still somewhat miss them. But life goes on. Farewell the both of you. I had good time.

The dream itself speaks of missing them as well. Each year we used to go to a lake in here Estonia called "Peipsi". This is the... umm... 2-nd year we didn't go? In my dream i was there. The dream itself wasn't very vivid. There was another family i know (who i haven't communicated with at all either), they were more positive than usually. The night was approaching, I asked where everyone is. She (from another family) said that they were near the lake... the usual spot. I ran there, through the sand, when i reached the lake side, there was noone there (except some other people). The water was warm, the sun setting, lake side filled with wood scrap and other trash. Somehow, it still made me feel nostalgic,but sad. I ran back to the camping site. Then my memory blanks out. I remember being in a lodge. The two from the other family, under a blanket telling stories. Then a person walks to the door ledge, watches in with a sad face. I wanted to ask her join us but before i could, she watches away, nearly in a verge of crying and walks away. I felt bad. Watching back, the two were also gone. I went through the lodging, there was no one. When i asked the landlord, she said that there has never been no one at all. I was completely alone.


Our paths grew apart. Good bye.

Anime update: More awesome anime!

Here comes more awesome anime! Some of them are pretty gruesome. I mean that, as in body gets blown to bits. In other words, contains quite the much of gore.
Anyways! Without any further delay, let's kick off the list.

3 - Elfen Lied

Clearly one of the best storylined anime out there. Has a dark, sad and forces you to watch more like storyline. The anime itself has points of nudity and for my surprise, i expected more gore, which didn't happen.

A quick intro to the storyline:

There are people called "Diclonius" who have horns on their heads and are capable of using "Telekinetic" like arms. They got them through mutation. A secret organization rounded them up and locked them up as test subjects. One day, Lucy decides to break out but nearly at the brink of escape, gets shot at head yet miraculously survives. When she recovers, she doesn't know who she is or how to talk. She keeps repeating "Nyu", and thus is given the name "Nyu".

The anime has only 13 episodes, but always has something happening, which makes you feel as you had watched it for forever.

I heard that manga went on for longer... haven't checked it out yet.

2 - Steins Gate

Let the madness begin! This anime's all about time travel and it's consequences. At first it may seem quite stupid and I nearly stopped watching because of it. Slow take-offs. But! After that, it got quite interesting.
The show itself is only 24 (+1 special) episodes long.

A quick intro to the show:
Rintaro Okabe, or as he likes to be called, Hououin Kyouma, self-proclaimed mad scientist, accidentally invents time machine that lets him send text messages to past. Without realizing, he alters timeline and a person survives. The same person soon joins his team to further test the time machine. Soon he is faced by many serious problems and is pretty much in a pickle.

I cannot tell any further, otherwise i'd already ruin the show.



1 - K Project

In a world ruled by kings, people gain powers according to the king. The world is divided into sections where one may rule. Our main protagonist has no idea what is going on and soon meets her cat who is actually a nekomimi (cat girl). She refers to herself simply as "Neko" (Which of course means "Cat" or "Kitten"). This comes as a shock to the main protagonist. In a little while he will be hunted by most factions (the kings) because of a murder which he did not commit... or did he?

In overall, the best storylined is still "Elfen Lied". Why? I like dark and sad storylines. ;)

Melting metal

I was melting aluminium outside today. I wanted to use alcohol and one of those old torches what runs on gasoline. ... It got my adrenaline running quite the bit. When i lit it, the pressure and flame only got worse by the second. It was nearly as my fear was amplifying it. At one point, the flame was coming out with such pressure, that the flame extinguished. I was relieved that it was over. Clearly it was a bad idea to use alcohol instead of gasoline. Maybe i put too much pressure into it too.... eheheh... whoops!

Anyways, later i made a fire and started to melt aluminium. It took a good hour or two. What annoyed me greatly is that when i was trying to stir the molten aluminium, it felt as the heat was almost like pulled into me. The flames constantly followed me around and the wind kept changing the direction.
At one point, i burned my hand by leaning on the grill (stupid move), but strangely, i didn't get burned as bad as i imagined to. The metal would have clearly scorched any organic materia in mere seconds. All i got was just a red stripe and a little of pain. No blisters, no nothing. How strange.
In the end, i think i had mold too many cans, that the metal just froze, even tho, the fire was much more hotter. I was able to salvage a good piece of it, but mostly was just oxides. *Sighs* <.<

Dream log: Treasure hunt

This dream is still incomplete. I cannot remember 100%.
However, the part i do remember, is a bit weird.

The point i can remember is that me, mom and mom's sister (blind) were on a field. It didn't remind me of any scenery i could remember. I've always liked to scan people, sceneries and objects to see what, how and where they come from.
Anyways, i was walking on the field when i start seeing these blue areas on the ground... (*remembers a part of the dream start, annoyed*)...  I wasn't sure what they were about. The next thing is that i remember having a miniature piano in my hand. It totally worked and i could play it darn well (Memory link to "Elfen Lied Lilium").

Later, i asked if my mom's sister wants it. She happily took it. She also said to be related to some writer (argh! Can't remember the name! It's a famous one), and that miniature piano was his. I was wearing a ring that belonged to someone powerful... i can't remember any further then.


Now, my "dad" told me that since his time, his dad had buried a gun near the house. And that the relatives of his had all kinds of valueables hidden near the house on a hill. Too bad i wasn't fully into parapsychology then (about 4-5 years ago or so). I bet i could find it now. It's weird. Sometimes my mind wanders off to places of where the idea seems to originate. I get pictures where the possible location might be.
I would really like to test that theory. Psychic treasure hunt...hehe. :P

Silence switch: Engaged.

I've come across this experience for a while now. What's weird is that it has never occurred while meditation.
While going to sleep, i have tons of  things on my mind. Mainly, listening to songs over and over and over. Then there's this weird snap, just like someone flipped a switch and my mind is instantly empty and i have OBE vibrations. It's kinda weird but awesome. I'll see if i can consciously recreate it.

Minor chakra points and visualization

The truth is that i never have fully paid attention to major chakras. I think that people focus on them too much.

The feeling and visualization of wings seems to improve everything in overall. But mainly, makes more focused and confident. It sorta reminds me that it's as someone hugging you from behind (compassionately).

About the length from index finger to thumb at full reach down the center of wings, is the central that improves sight (On the spine, a little lower where ribs end).

There's a lot more, but i'm not yet sure what they specifically do.

Deja vu: The song i heard in the dream!

I never thought i would find it. Yesterday i watched "Elfen Lied" then i remembered that i heard this somewhere. About a year ago, i heard this in my dream, then had it stuck in my mind, trying to recreate it but failing horribly.

I feel as a rock has been lifted from my heart, but i feel sadder than normally. Amazing melody. I keep getting cold chills through my spine constantly.

Edit:

Strange. For some reason i thought i heard this song over a year ago, but in reality it hasn't even been 2 months.

Here's a dream log from that day:

"

 Dream log: Choices (if you don't want to "get" negative, don't read)

 If you make one choice, it can and probably will affect the others. By making choices, we change others more than ourselves.
Environment: Desert, no life. Sky is clear blue. A classic post-apocalyptic scenery. High hills.
I walk down a road where there used to be a small village. I do not know what had happened. The wind blows dust from time to time and suddenly, i notice two cats fighting. The black one, losing.I shoo the other one away and pick the injured cat up. I placed hand on him and he felt better. Placed him on my shoulder and continued walking down the dusty road. I come across a gate, see 3 people. I went through the rusted gate and continued to approach them. The two walked past me as i did not exist. I greeted a woman with black hair, torn clothes, skinny. Asked if it was her cat. She was happy to see him, but suddenly saw a sad expression. I asked what's wrong. She said that she had seen so many cats die. She was depressed. I attempted to comfort, saying that i know the feeling since i've seen a countless amount of cats die as well. She smiled for a moment and continued to look sad. As in suddenly lost the will to live. The dream leaps. I was looking for food from an old grocery store. Nothing. I went back to see how she's doing. I found her dead. Tied to a sign post, clothes ripped off and had written on her "grope". I felt disgusted. But i knew that whoever tied her up there, didn't kill her. Just a brief moment before i saw her, i saw her fall off the cliff (and had someone sing in an opera style using only "Uuu...", as in for death song). As she fell and hit the ground, her bones broke. The music stopped. 

Who's fault was her death? Mine.I "pushed" her to the last limit. I made the choice of healing the cat and giving it to her. If i never would have helped the cat, let him die, the girl would've lived. Or maybe, if i never would've gone to the grocery store and stayed with her, maybe she would've lived?
Now, how's that for a dramatic ending dream? Choices, choices. But i later, i stopped to analyze the dream. Notice the similarities. Black cat, losing and injured. Black hair, torn clothes, skinny and mentally unstable. Technically the same, isn't it? Winning cat.... probably the one who tied her to a post and wrote stuff on her.

"

That same song was sung in as i said, "opera style". But what bugs me is that it IS that song. I've never seen Elfen Lied nor heard this song until now. That truly shocked me.

I, Hate, Birthdays.

Goddamnit people, just go away! I don't care of my birthday. I hate being near many people. I hate talking. I hate having to think up things, just to keep away those awkward silences.

A birthday means nothing to me. It's just another stupid day. I'm an asocial and like being alone. So, mind NOT coming? Thank you.

Dream log: Bringing things back from dreams

This dream actually was quite thought provoking.

One thing that i've found weird is that the old classmates in my dreams... their personalities don't match anymore. Some people who were nice have turned totally negative and the ones who were negative have become positive.

The dream starts off rather normally. I'm back at school with my my former and new classmates. It was 3D modeling lesson. I really didn't pay attention because my blood pressure was so high, that i lost hearing. All i could hear was noise. I decided to go to the school doctor, see if she can give me something to bring it down. Nope. I was just turned away like "That's probably nothing, now get lost". A while after i realized that it had came down. I went home and to sleep.
In sleep, i met ... 2 people i think. We went to the outlaw of the city. It had totally fallen apart and no one was there. There were car parts, metal and what not. We entered a wooden house. We found a TON of stuff in there. Mainly electronics. An older guy (22-23 approx.) who really reminded me of Sussch for some reason was messing with high-voltage there. He powered up some weird thingy and high voltage arcs flew everywhere. He even go hit by them but strangely wasn't influenced by them at all. I asked why. He said because of the ring he wears he acts as a ground (in my logic, he CLEARLY should've got shocked). The other guy was searching for stuff. I found a sander, welder and lots of other stuff. I said "I'm about to run out of time (dream ending), what are you gonna do?". The other guy says that he will travel through time and place these items in future (why future?) and then in few days, we will be able to retrieve it. He did that, we hid the stuff.
There indeed was the stuff we got from dreams. It was weird. Then i realized that this as well is a dream... Damn. I was sorta annoyed. lol


So, if someone is capable of chronokinesis, and you take an object in dream and go to your current timeline, would you get the object? But wouldn't that create a paradox?

Dream log: Save the princess, kill the guards

Dream takes place at home, sleeping, when i overhear my "dad" talking about how bad i am. I hear him saying "If he doesn't get a job, he'll turn out like one of those junkies". I wake up, dress and go to the kitchen and say straight to his face " You know NOTHING of ME. You got NO RIGHT to talk about who or what i will become. My future is for me, and only ME to decide and not you."

After saying that, i remember silence and the scenery changes (subconscious trying to tell me something?). I'm on the middle of a town, looks like somewhere in England.  I stand on a nice path made of rocks, there are a few people moving. I see a carriage going past me. The houses look old yet sturdy. To my right, i notice some people fighting (verbally). I eavesdrop from nearby bushes. The spot was perfect since it was  surrounded by trees. I find out that those two were soon to get married and become king and queen. The man was very oppressive, wanted her to become his SO much (as an object... slave rather than equal). She says she needs to go to the toilet. I followed (haha, now i'm a stalker? xD). That man send few of his guards, who weren't doing a very good job. I hear them say the same thing."I hope everything goes well for that woman... that guy is nuts!". The woman came out and guards followed her. I walk at her. "(Fake smile), Umm hi... could i speak with you for a second?" (She nods), "(Whisper) Do you want to run away?" Her eyes light up all the sudden and nods. The guards have no idea what's going on since they were chatting amongst themselves. I thought up the casual distraction. I shout "Guys, what the hell is that thing????" And of course they turn around and start to search what's wrong. While they are distracted, i lifted (even tho i'm physically weak) the princess up and made a run for it.
I remember jumping and levitating from one roof to another. Then we think we are safe, we enter an abandoned building (made of stone, no windows). I sensed one of them coming. When i saw him, he was as a mindless zombie. Like under someone's control. I drew my sword and killed him. Then there came more. I can't remember at that point anymore... i think i died then.. i'm not sure. That princess escaped. When they talked about who died in here, i was in another body... or maybe i shape-shifted. The environment was strangely much more vivid. The dream ended at that point too.

Deja vu's. Deja vu's everywhere.

(Grinds teeth) This annoying feeling when you know what's going to happen, but not know what's going to happen. Any kind of outer stimuli seems to recall certain memory. Usually, these are bits of future. This has started happening too often. It's nearly as someone sends these bits to unconscious me, then pokes me with a stick to see if i will recall em. -.-

They usually are random moments from my life. School, anime (the most frequent of em all), outside, talk etc.
Right now when i saw the youtube's video thumbnail on Sussch'es post, i got a quick memory of being in the kitchen, golden sunlight coming in from the window (sunset), with family and said something important. I remembered for a brief moment, but now i can't figure out what. ... Menduksee (annoying)... -_-

Time confusion + more light visions

From time to time, i mistake day for night and night for day. I am a night person. I like that it's quiet and relaxing then. Nobody (well, bigger part of humanity) isn't capable of seeing or sensing then (they aren't even when it's light. You can totally hide in plain sight).
I don't go out at all because i got no friends nor need to. The only exception is when i want to do something (invent, experiment or just practice).

Sometimes i do something and think it's day-time (as if it is bright outside), and it feels like one, but actually is night. And sometimes the reverse. It's really confusing. Sometimes time seems to be so long, sometimes mere hours vanish into thin air.

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Still. Movement = Light. No matter what sort of movement it is, it creates light. For example, cat moving.

But that's not the point. Sometimes, this light is created when there is no physical object. The latest is cat jumping down from window and walks away.
Mostly they have been animals, but human like forms have as well caught my sight. These visions seem to be repetitive.

Memories, perhaps?

Dream log: I broke my dreaming record once again!

Usually, i have trouble staying in a dream. I managed to develop a dream into lucid dream and when it was about to end i pushed it back to semi-lucid. I prolonged the dream by x3 times. The problem is, is that it wasn't vivid lucid (meaning i was not fully conscious nor superconscious.).

I actually forgot the dream. It was so long. I was capable of recalling certain scenes and am positive that i'm capable of recalling the full dream.

The dream itself served really no purpose. Once i awakened, i wanted to go check the village out. I walked and walked  but at the distance, the buildings changed (i was not in full control over the dream). I achieved momentary levitation (jump up, levitate, smoothly come down) The environment was nearly the exact.
What can i say. Everything was as it should be.

Then there was a funny part where i was with 2 older men, trapped and no food. I attempted making fire using PK, no success. Then i find a box next to me.... matches in it. I think my subconscious was saying:" Stop relying on your abilities so much." lol. It was a semi-lucid. I wasn't capable of prolonging the dream any further. It was fun experiencing this long dream tho. :)

Messing with people's thoughts using sound

I find it amusing how easy it is to break one's concentration.

I've been experimenting by imbuing a thought and a pattern into sound, when the sound is created, the pattern similar to one's thinking is broken and original thought overwritten with external thought.

I've been messing with mom lately. She's playing games i snip my fingers slowly and increase the speed (causing more careless thinking, concentration on sound instead of game) then when i think it's good enough, i create a louder one followed by silence (Thought:"What now? What am/was i doing?"). The moment she realized that she had been concentrating on sound, she already failed at the game.

Much easier is just saying:"You will fail." causing person to imagine failure and to subconsciously materialize it.
I've said "you will succeed" and that worked, but lot less. Probably i've programmed her to think of failure. Hmmh...

I was also messing with her when she was talking with her sister (originally, i wanted to try breaking thought pattern of her sister instead). I used quiet, high-pitched whistle, concentrating on imbuing the thought of nothingness. It was more effective than i thought. She started lagging, as if parts of thoughts were cut off.

It's fun to mess with people. But i will restrain myself from doing so. Either way, what right do i have to do so?

Dream log: ... another nosebleed

This morning i noticed again that i had a minor nosebleed. It's odd, because i got shot in my dream below the eye and the same side bleeded.

The dream itself was a total baloney. There were these guys shooting at me, me shielding the bullets and trying to spin a piece of paper into ridiculous speeds to cut through them (which failed horribly). Technically, it was a warfare between me and a guy vs some other guys.

I got to say, getting hit with a bullet.... not so great of a feeling. Tho it felt dizzy-ing and warm.

Energy particles?

I was watching Karneval (anime), when from the corner of the eye i notice something moving. I thought it was a bug or something. Looked at it, gone, watching the screen again... there it is again!
It went on for quite the while. What confused me is that i couldn't feel it. It was just running around near my arm as if gathering energy from my biofield. It was kinda amusing to watch.

Lets experiment! - ORMUS - Ordinary sea salt + NaOH

The bad thing is that i have no pH measuring device (i used to have one made of purple cabbage), so i have no specific way of knowing, when it is right and when not.
What i will do is make a moderate solution of sea salt water and start to add NaOH so it will form the white substance. Assuming that it will form, i will then slowly add more NaOH until i see no further generation of it.

Logically thinking, sea salt should have life energy in it... but clearly not as much as dead sea salt or others.
I wonder if it's possible to make ORMUS from shale oil? I got ton of that lying around. Shale oil is pretty much made of life energy. Probably the highest and densest form of energy at all in nature.

Philosopher's stone is still evaporating slowly. Nothing really to do at the moment with it.

Edit:

It does actually work. I put about (i didn't weight it out or anything) x3 125ml NaOH on 625ml salt water. I probably put too much NaOH. The solution felt slippery (meaning of high concentrations of NaOH).

I was sorta disappointed how less i got. But it's better than nothing. Sea salt works.

Here's some pics.

Edit 2:

The solution has gone through 2-nd wash. I will do total 5.

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Edit 3:

Something strange happened. The ORMUS was floating on top instead at the bottom. When i gave it a slight tap, it created snow fall effect.

By now, the solution is non-see through. Some of it is still on the top layer but most is back at the bottom.

Edit 4:

It's 4-rth purification process. The ORMUS falls down much quicker. Approximately in 4-5 minutes. It has became whiter. Sorta sometimes seems to defy inerts and gravity. Sometimes i accidentally shake it quite hard but seems to stay at the same spot. Strange substance indeed,

Edit 5:

I ingested bigger part of it. I don't feel any different at all. Probably because it was such small amount. I will use the other part to test on plants. See how they react to it.

The ORMUS didn't have any taste. It sorta like ... umm... you know, when you have ever taken Magnesium Oxide, it disintegrates, is tasteless and is as very fine sand. Or something like that at least.

At a point, it tasted like plastic.... probably because i made it in a plastic bottle.

Either way, i think people are just over-exaggerating about the effects... or it's just another thing i'm immune towards at (i'm immune towards poisons, medicine and natural substances... don't ask why). Or maybe it's just because i'm used to energy work. (Sounds sorta egoistic lol, but it's not.)


Overall:

I will not count this as a failure. I'll give it 50/50. If i had bigger amounts (like half a bottle), i'd ingest it to see if it has any effects. Up til' now, nothing.

Dream log: Attic

I've never been to our house's attic. I really want to go there, see what memories, senses and objects i can pick up. I always had this need to use clairvoyance on old places. I get second vision when i visit places and they are nearly like burned to my mind. Usually, i remember the environment i get rather, the real thing i see.
I find old, abandoned and deteriorated places fascinating. Maybe someone has left something behind. Kinda like treasure hunt with senses. :P

Anyways, the dream was a jumble once again. I remember going up there, seeing a door to the left (there is no door), a window straight ahead (there is no window, it's pitch black there). I went to look the door, opened it. Nothing interesting. The moment i turned back, the environment had completely changed. The place was brighter and looked like as a wood workshop. I moved to look at the objects... focused on it for a moment and again when i turned away, it had again completely changed. The place looked now as metal workshop. Then something happened... war or something and find myself outside. I was like "Urghhhh...! What in the world is going on??"

There was something more... something REALLY important. I keep getting the feeling... i missed something or someone. I can't recall.... I'm missing essential links to these memories. Should try getting the enviroment as detailed and same as i can. Do everything as i did. See if that jump starts something. *Disappointed*